private conversation: asuka

[ It's not until they make it to Sol's room and the door is firmly shut that she'll actually talk again, cracking her knuckles and seeming to fidget, uncertain of how to start. ]

This motive, it's...I want to start off by sayin' I would never try for it. Ever. But I just...

[ Should she stay quiet, or speak? She's never been certain of which would be better over the past few weeks. Sol doesn't want to distract or worry any of the others when she knows she'd rather die than kill, but even so - is lying by omission the correct path? ]

...Do you remember when we were talking about killing, before? The mistakes I've made aren't...small. And the deaths on my hands...they can't be erased, even by something like this. I don't believe that to be the case. Even if time were to change, they'd still - some way or another, they'd still happen, no matter what I'd tried to do.

[ She's aware people here consider her to be a generally good person and she's so thankful for that, but she's always, always aware it isn't true. ]